To wallow or not to wallow?

100 Day Challenge, Day 2:

Today was immunology day. I need another antibiotic, on top of the one I’m on right now, on a long term basis. The specialist gave me two options for a new antibiotic: One of the drugs causes deafness in 5% of patients with long term use. The other one can cause a horrible rash that has a 5-25% mortality rate (depending on body area affected) in up to 15% of patients. He asked me to choose one of the two!

So I wallowed for a bit and I started feeling sorry for myself. And then I realised I don’t have to pick anything. No one is forcing me to pick an antibiotic. In fact no one is forcing me to do anything. The truth of the matter is  that I ‘get’ to pick one of two antibiotics. I get to do that because I ‘get’ to be alive today and ‘get’ to hope to be alive tomorrow and the day after and the day after that. And I even ‘get’ to hope that one of these days an antibiotic will work and the infections will subside a bit.

And if being alive, getting to make choices and having a bit of hope isn’t something to be thankful for then I don’t know what is!

Zoe